Great questions!

I got these fun little getting to know you questions from my cousins wife and thought I would share.

What scares you the most? The thought of losing someone I love without notice and the worry that I didn't get to say I love you. I love my husband but there are days where I just have to walk away because of a argument or disagreement. And I have to admit some of the words that come out of my mouth aren't always nice. The fear of thinking the last thing I said to him was "your a jerk" really haunts me. No matter how angry I am I manage to get "I love you" out of my mouth before I leave just in case something was to happen to him that day. I don't only do this with my husband but also my family. NO matter what, I make it a point to always say I love you even if I am going to see them again in 5 minutes. I must admit that I learned this from my husband who hates leaving things unsettled and walking away. My mom would always tell me to say I love you cause you never know if this is the last chance you have to say it. If or when I lose someone I know that they are taken care of in heaven I am more worried about myself being here without them.

Where do you see yourself in 10 years? I will be turning 39 and probably dreading it. I hope to have at least 2 children by then and still be happily married in love. To my husband of course. I hope to have a steady life style enjoying the outdoors and everything life has to offer.

What is something (almost) no one knows about you? That I am really scared about not being able to have children. I worry that I am going to lose my husband in old age and I will be alone. I want to be able to have family get togethers and trips with my kids and there spouse when the time comes.

What is the one thing you wish everyone knew about you? My feelings. I tend to hold things in and not let anyone know that I am upset. I am really good at acting like everything is ok when it isn't. Then my poor husband has to take care of me when I finally explode. Which could either be a down pour of tears or throwing fists rage. He will tell you that this only happens for 2 days every three months right around the time aunt flow comes.

What is your guilty pleasure? Shopping, only when I am sad or depressed. I can spend more than I should and can hide it well.

Another week!

Earth Day Fun!

Last Thursday a friend of mine bought us tickets to see Train at Earth Fest. It was a really fun and long night. A total of 5 bands played with Train playing last of course so we were there about 6 hours. My feet were killing me. I was proud of myself. I didn't indulge on any of the usual vendor foods that are always so tempting. My wonderful and caring husband was nice enough to feed me the lettuce from his gigantic smoothered burrito. Never have a felt like a rabbit before until that night.

Saturday we went to Liberty park in Salt Lake for Earth Jam. We met up with a few friends and enjoyed a day in the sun listening to music. There was a group of Belly dancers which was interesting. I asked Alyssah if she wanted to take belly dancing lessons (I was kidding of course). She commented back "why would I want to do that. Its kind of weird". I love her personality even if it comes with a little bit of attitude. She turns 9 on Saunday. I can't believe how old and grown up she has gotten. I think this is probably might favorite stage so far.

The weight loss adventure continues. I have officially lost 20 lbs. I should have taken pictures and measured when I started just so I could have a biggest loser moment and compare my before and after shots. I have lost twice as much (1-2 lbs a day) since I started eating organic food. Kind of funny that something that small could make such a difference.

Well, we are moving again. Yes, it has only been 5 months but we just can't afford to live so far away anymore. Gas is so expensive and we want to be closer to everything. We are looking at renting a place over in the Sugarhouse/Canyon Rim area which I absolutely love. It will be nice so nice.

Till next time! Hope all is well with everyone.

Catching up again!

Yes, It has been awhile and I know I promised that I would keep up on the blog but man has life been nuts. Josh still isn't back to work which is really starting to hurt the pocket book. My dad and mom both said they are prepared if we need to move in. I have such great parents! Hopefully that won't need to happen so keep your fingers crossed he is back to work soon. Summer is the worst time to be poor. SO many fun things to do but no money to do it with. My wonderful mother and step-father are taking the entire family to Lake Tahoe for a week in June. I can't wait. The lake in Tahoe is beautiful and Derek is stationed out there so it is a two for one deal. Dan will drive in from Cali to meet us there.

Kampsnider family reunion is in July so hopefully we will be able to make it there. It is so nice being able to see everyone. Since our last reunion cousins have gotten married, pregnant, and had children. It is amazing what can happen in a year.

So as you all know I have been dieting pretty hard and have lost 15 lbs. I am actually really suprised how much self control and descipline I have. Its funny cause I make myself a really healthy dinner with meat and veggies for me and then something a little more appetizing for Josh and Alyssah. They are then picking off my plate (when I hardly have anything to eat anyway). I hadn't realized that me eating healthy would influence them. I am excited to be able to cook family meals again that are healthy and not feel compromised. And yes, Justin and Tiff, organic tastes much better. Yes it is expensive but it is worth it. The first week I ate all organic. With the lack of funds I have resorted back to non organic and I am really lacking energy. Organic food has such a better taste and just makes you feel better. I have a new love for Sunflower Market.

Dance Recital

Alyssah's first dance recital went well. She had been sick so she missed a couple practices and couldn't remember all of the dance but she still did really well. She was really cute and excited.

Sad, Sad Day

So we officially lose our house on April 1st. After almost a year of being in a short sale we could no longer afford the house and it went into foreclosure. I am bummed because it was my first home purchase and it wasn't a very wise one. We were ambitious! It was in an area we loved, a huge yard for the dogs, nice size home, and close to the mountains. It was going to take some work but man were we motivated. Josh bought all the tools need to make this our dream home. The ambition lasted about 2 years and we got alot done. It was looking really good and then thanks to contruction life Josh got laid off and we just couldn't catch up.

It has been a learning experience. We will never get into a place that we can't afford on just one of our incomes only or one that takes that much work. It was an old home so of course everything was quittinq at the same time. It all got very overwhelming and we just couldn't do it anymore. So yes, my perfect credit is now screwed but at least we don't have the stress anymore. We are renting a nice place in Eagle Mountain (southwest of Salt Lake). I love the area but it is at least 15-20 min from the interstate. We were lucky to find someone that would let us have our dogs.

I miss the motorcycle

Yesterday, the bikers riding in the Polar Bear motorcycle ride came through Saratoga Springs. What am amazing site. There were hundreds and hudreds of bikes. Alyssah hasn't been feeling good so it has been hard to get any type of emotion or excitment out of her but when she saw all the bikes she was so excited and wouldn't stop smiling. There is something about motorcyles. I miss Josh's bike a lot. Especially in the spring. I miss the open air, the rumble of the engine, the "i am a bad ass" attitude, the burns on my legs, and the cramps in my butt from holding on for dear life. Alyssah loved taking rides and was never scared. I know that they can be dangerous but I wouldn't mind strapping on some leather and riding along my bald biker enjoying the open road again!!

Hooray! Its spring!

What a beautiful day! I started off the weekend by celebrating my friends 41st people. She is going through a rough time now getting divorced after 19 years of marriage. So what would a good friend do besides listening and being a shoulder to cry on?? Take her out and get her drunk of course. Let me tell you that this was not my idea but man was it fun. We went to the Tavernacle in downtown Salt Lake. For those of you out of towners this is one of the greatest social clubs in Salt Lake. They play dueling pianos. You request a song and the higher you tip them the more likely they are to play your song. If you hate the song you tip higher then the original bid so they will stop playing the song. The entertainers are great and the entire crowd gets involved. What I love about this place is that there is a wide variety of people. Old, young, hippie, snottie, crazy, and everyone has fun. If you are ever in downtown Salt Lake you have to check it out.

We started Spring off today with beautiful weather. We live out in the boondocks so we took the dogs up in the mountain area to run around. I was riding in the back of the truck with the dogs not realizing we were going 4 wheeling. Josh hits a huge bump and I just about flew right out of the truck. My rear has never hurt so bad. Josh had to stop the truck he was laughing so hard. After a little more bumps we hit the top. The view was beautiful and the smell amazing. The dogs loved being able to just run and run. Alyssah hasn't been feeling well but she held out as long as she could.

I am glad we were able to start Spring off right. Now I need to open the windows, play some music and get my house clean so I can spend the rest of my weekends outside.